I was reading through a previous blog that I had started in college. This post was written while I was in a discipleship program in Upstate New York, and reflecting on the lessons that God was revealing to me through day-to-day circumstances. I found it to be both encouraging and convicting, so I'm reposting it here.
God's faithfulness is not measured in one life, it is measured in His remembrance of His covenants. He is faithful,
but I think many of His mercies and gifts are mislabeled and assigned
as indicators of His faithfulness. Much of my mentality stems from bad
habits and a twisted perspective from which I am still being delivered. Grace is still a new concept for me, and I will probably be
learning about it and consumed by curiosity with it for quite some time.
But, because of the mentality I grew up with, I think it is necessary
for me to distinguish between the two concepts of "faithfulness" and
"mercy."
Mercy:
compassion or forgiveness shown toward someone whom it is within one's
power to punish or harm; an event to be grateful for, especially because
its occurrence prevents something unpleasant or provides relief from
suffering.
The
small town I currently call my home depends largely on year-round
tourism; the summers bring hikers and lakeside vacationers, the winters
bring skiers and snowmobilers. Winters without snow mean decreased
tourism and the whole town suffers to the extent that snow is brought up
as a prayer request frequently during our church service. Is waking up
to three inches of fresh powder a sign of God's faithfulness? As
tempting as it is to immediately begin praising God for His faithfulness
in bringing the much-needed snow, I think it's important to instead
recognize an answer to prayer like this as a mercy.
Maybe
I'm simply criticizing semantics, but I do think we run the risk of an
entitled attitude if we think that God's faithfulness is revealed by
whether or not He answers our personal prayer requests. God does care
about the little 'non-essential' prayers of His people, but He is by no
means bound to answer them according to our wishes in order to prove
that He is faithful. When I thank God for His faithfulness in providing
a community of Christ-centered people to live with, is my deeper
attitude one of deserving the community? "God is doing a great job of
staying on top of giving me the things I deserve. Thanks, God!" To be
honest, I am sinful and prideful enough to believe that on some level I do deserve the day-to-day blessings of life, and that God is really just giving me the due rewards of living a 'Christian' life.
As
I sit here writing, a friend came in and gave me a coffee he had bought
for me while we are both on a work break. I hadn't asked for the
coffee, but he wanted to bless me with a surprise. (I was blessed.) Is
the coffee an indicator of his being a faithful friend? By no means!
But say this friend and I had been working together for a few months,
and say he took delight in surprising me with a cup of delicious coffee
from the local coffee shop each day. I get used to the gift, and begin
to expect it as a sort of unspoken agreement in our friendship. Is he
an unfaithful friend if he on day decides not to get coffee? Am I
justified in being put off because he didn't give me what I had come to
expect? The coffee was a gift, and it is no less of a gift the
hundredth time it is given than it is the first. All that changes is my
perspective. Of course, this analogy will fall apart, but the
scenario stops me short when I really ask myself if I would be as
surprised and thankful for coffee in a few months as I am sipping it
right now. I take far too much for granted. I am all too easily
tempted into believing that we all deserve the sun each morning, and
that God is just holding up His end of our 'unspoken agreement' in each
sunrise or answered prayer.
I want to cultivate an attitude of thankfulness. I want to see each morning as a mercy,
and not as something I somehow deserve. I'm still seeking
understanding in recognizing God's faithfulness, and it will most likely
pop up as another blog post in the future. Either that or Grace. I'm
still pretty captivated by Grace.
